May 13, 2009 / Creative Writing
I watched Rebel Without a Cause on TV late one college night when I learned …
March 19, 2015
Words curdle. Words evaporate.
Words reconstitute in the scent of strong coffee,
in the kicked-up odor of wet, decaying leaves
present even in summer outside these city walls.
Our words were never
can take up a pen or a brush
and create symbols: flesh
pulling meaning from nothing.
And how full that nothing is
with the dust motes in the church where you painted,
with the light of guttering votives
circling the Virgin’s skirt.
Full with silent prayers and the cold breath
of cobblestones. I often wondered
where you walked: satchel slung over shoulder,
shirt scrunched down to the skin of you,
the little current of air you generated—if it were
visible—a deep blue-green.
The eyes of my heart would follow you
up hills and down,
through the cool
shadows of grocery, garden, and nave,
through the sun’s stream beamed back
from walls, beneficent.
I rested my forehead
on your train window to Rome.
I followed you to the seashore
where you grew strong on wind and light.
I followed you not knowing
where you lived till I left for good.
To think my fingers could have touched that door.
To think my palm could have pressed the cool metal, turned;
that I could have entered and known.
My hands kept busy with bread
and cup, with glass and guidebook,
each day cradled
by the guttural beauty of the cool air at night.
(For the night had an imperceptible sound—
a dark, creaturely groaning and a
lilt soft as wings in cypress trees—
something like waking in the womb.)
Kristin Brace is a writer whose poetry and prose have appeared or are forthcoming in journals such as the Chariton Review, Meridian, the Louisville Review, and Fiction Southeast. A graduate of Spalding University’s MFA in Writing Program, she works to improve literacy in West Michigan.